They never said it would be easy....

Well they never said it would be easy and it is definitely not easy.

My first day was all day lectures of Biochemistry and Histology and I thought this isn't terrible yet.

My second day was more biochemistry and more histology and I was starting to feel the overwhelming creeping behind me and tapping on my shoulder

My third day I was calling home crying saying I can't do this

My fourth day I cried a little more, but starting to realize ever other girl in my class had also cried the night before and some even on the second day which made me feel a little bit better

By Friday (my fifth day) I realized my whole class felt the same way I did so I began to realize it we are all in this together, we will all suffer together and we will ALL get through it together.

On my seventh day I took my first test in Biochemistry and in Histology and I am pleased to say I did fine in both and I couldn't be more thankful to start out this crazy ride on a good note.

This past wednesday I met my cadaver for the first time. My cadaver is a female who has graciously donated herself so I along with my peers could have a up close and person experience with the human body-muscles, organs, and all. It does get a little personal when you see that some of the cadavers have tatooes and some of the women still have thier toe nails painted but then you rememeber they wanted thier bodies to have a purpose after death and you're grateful to have the "gross anatomy" (what they like to call the holy grail of medical school) experience.

I am highly sensitive to the fomalin (formaldehyde) used to preserve the bodies. My eyes water, my nose burns, and my throat burns from the fumes. I continually am turning my head away from the body to get air. A few of my classmates got a little weezy the first dissection where we removed the skin from the body. I seemed to be able to keep in together regarding the visuals, its the fumes that seem to bother me more than anything.

I am glad to say I have survived 2 full weeks, it feels like I've been doing this for two month we've covered so much material. On the same note it feel like I've known my classmates for much longer than 2 weeks also, and we're definitely becoming a tight knit group.

Salt and Light,

Kelly

I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.